I’ve decided to change two things on my blog. I am now sharing my first name and I’ve changed my profile picture to a face shot of me.
My initial reason for excluding this information was that I wanted to keep my blog completely anonymous so if someone I knew stumbled upon it, they would have no way of identifying me. I’m no longer scared of this. I don’t want to hide myself anymore or feel the need to “protect” others from knowing the real me (which, let’s be honest, was just a way to shield myself). I’ve included my name in my blog now because I’d like to get to know others better and to know me better. I’ve also included my picture because I feel it is safe to do so now that I’m at a restored weight. Prior to this, I feared triggering others by posting a picture of myself at a sick weight. I’m still going to refrain from posting pictures of my figure. I know how much my eating disorder likes to compare my body to everyone else’s in an attempt to make me feel my [perceived] inferiority. Even though I’m at a healthy weight now, I acknowledge that it may still be difficult for others’ eating disorders to resist the urge to compare. Healthy doesn’t come in one size. A quote I saw once and instantly fell in love with goes like this, “your best weight is whatever weight you reach when you’re living the healthiest life you actually enjoy.”
So, whether you’ve been reading my blog for a while or just started with this one, it’s nice to finally meet you 🙂